My Writings - You Are Leaving Now?...(As the Soul is slipping away...)

I feel so much pain and sadness because I know you are about to leave.
How can I make you stay?
How can I change this course?
I don’t want to be - “The Bereaved”.

I want to hear your voice in a simple conversation.
I want to feel your arms around me in a hug.
I want to see that smile in your eyes that shows me - I am loved!

Who am I without you?
We’ve walked this Earth together for many years.
How can my life continue and go on?

I don’t know how to take another step.
Because without you,
I am lost and void of any direction.

Quickly, quickly before you go---
Show me what your leaving means.
We never talked about it and so I have no reasoning!

If I grab and hold you tight,
Can I buy a little time—so we can sit and sort this out?
And then I will understand when you are gone,
Because you can send me your own special signs.

We can be so confused here on Earth—
Why wait until now, and then try and define death?
Why don’t we spend our days in comfort, because we found peace
long before our loved ones or ourselves have taken their last breath?

Please guide me as you reach the “other side”.
I don’t understand in this moment,
But I don’t want to stay in pain and despair.
I want to know you are still close to me;
And that I will only become stronger,
Because of how much you cared.

(pause…clear vision…)
I see myself many years down the road.
Life has certainly changed since you’ve been gone.
Many have moved in and out of my life,
and I am wiser now.
I finally get what our lives really mean.

It’s not about holding on so tightly at the end.
It’s about hugging often and really appreciating the voices that are passing through our ears.
It’s about finding happy moments every day;
And realizing, we all have to travel in our own special way.

I was afraid to let you go because I did not know myself without you,
And I did not know if you would be okay without me.
Wow, looking back-
I have discovered now that we are both free.
I know who I am and I have no fear.
And I believe once you left,
You never shed a tear.

You knew we would always be together.
We just have different experiences –
I needed to stay and play on Earth a little longer,
And you were ready to shed your cocoon for a new adventure.

I look forward to visiting with you again,
As our paths cross in the wind.
These bodies make it feel like we come to an end,
But now I know that Birth and Death are the same…
And it won’t be long before –
I hear you say my name.


Vickie Greenway
5/24/10